so goes motherhood, I guess

Well, the kids are at their dad's this weekend and I just got home from work(the second job).  It's weird how the energy in the house feels depleted when they're not here.  It's not the noise, the constant questions, or the business, something just feels less.  I don't know about other mom's, but I can totally "feel" my kid's energy when they are home.  I think my son can pick on it too.  Just last week before daddy dearest came to get him he said to me, " dad's almost here I can feel him."  A weird comment from a four year old.  But, two seconds later daddy dearest pulled up.  Although, I miss them when there not here, it's nice knowing I can wake up tomorrow whenever I want, have a hot cup of coffee, and not have to watch the Little Einsteins.  I love the two bugs more than life itself, but sometimes sleeping in past 7 is such a luxury.

I went out to dinner with some girlfriends last night and they were complaining about their husbands.  How it's so hard to do it all, while their husbands seem to not do enough.  I feel like such an outsider during these types of conversations because I remember that, the husband.  But I look at them and want to say,  you should feel lucky you have someone to share it with, you have someone to talk to after the kids are in bed, you have someone to watch the kids while you run to Shaw's in the pouring rain(instead of dragging 2 kids with you).  Being a single mom is the hardest thing I have ever done.  Thank God though, I get to snuggle those two bugs every night before they fall asleep, I get to hold them when they cry, I get to belly laugh at their actions, I get to revel in their innocence.  I love them, but they are tiring.  So goes motherhood, I guess.